Packing

In the past, when it comes to pregnancy, I have always made the mistake of procrastinating. This time instead of just looking at my actual due date I'm trying to just prepare no matter what. So, on that note, when I left my appointment yesterday I went to the store and picked up some things I'll need for my hospital stay. I got myself a new pair of comfy pj's, some shower samples, slippers, camera batteries, etc. I also got the King a few things as well. Now this weekend we can pack our bag and I'll feel better knowing we're ready.

I don't know why, but when it comes to this impending birth I have A LOT of anxiety. I have tried just about everything to relax but not much works. I don't know exactly what I am afraid of, just that I am. I have not experienced this in the past which is part of what makes it so weird. I feel the worst at night and I find myself actually praying that I will not go into labor anytime soon. I'm just not mentally ready. Of course right now that makes sense because I have a few weeks until the due date, but that isn't the real reason anyway. I'm not afraid of having him here at all, it's the actual birth that has me all freaked out. I must add, I have no reason to believe everything won't go smoothly. I've had epidurals successfully in the past as well, so no high expectations either. Who knows, I'm sure it's normal, but it is bothering me. Hopefully I will read this in a few weeks and laugh about how smoothly it really went and how I had nothing to worry about. I hope.